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June 7th, 2008
02:02 am
I wish someone was online to talk to, just so I had someone to talk to. But thats okay. Since nobody is online, I will actually write what's on my mind, which is probably why I want someone to talk to. So that I don't have to think about this:
I hugged Tian jun extra long and good tonight. It was a really good hug. He reciprocated the sincerity of the hug very nicely. It really was a good hug.
And its not that I don't want to think about the hug. Thinking about great hugs is great.
I don't regret not staying with Tian jun. Because we couldn't have been together with what he was going through. He had to figure stuff out. And when I started liking him, he was still okay. But then when things stopped being okay with him and when he started "freaking out," things got too serious and he wasn't himself anymore, so I didn't like him as much. You know. Because he wasn't Tian jun. He was sad Tian jun zombie man. Sort of. Anyways, not important. Now he has his shit together. And he seems happy. And I can't tell if the way I feel about him is just that I'm happy that he's my friend because he's a good person. The kind of person who doesn't try to prove themself to other people because he doesn't need to. He's a good person and he knows it and knows that if you're good, too, you'll figure out that he's good. I don't know. But maybe I still have romantic-like feelings for him. You know? But anyways, I hope none of my friends who know him will read this and mention it to him. Because I wouldn't like for that to happen.
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May 19th, 2008
05:56 pm - Baby names.
Avia
India
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12:37 pm
I wish I was in Spain instead of home fighting with my mom.
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May 18th, 2008
05:34 am - Old man.
I shouldn't have a livejournal. Ben writes all intellectual stuff, but I just want to bitch.
You know in the last Harry Potter book how they all get real crabby when they wear the locket? I feel like that. Except its every time I wear my herniated disc and I can't take it off! Is it really so much to ask to just sleep through the night? I'm sick of waking up at 4:30 or 5:30 and not being able to fall back asleep unless I get out of bed for a while. And I can't do anything. I'm starting to be able to walk short distances, but still! I can't sit long enough to go see a movie or anything. I can't really go to the mall. I can't drive in the car to go visit my friends easily. Stupid back. I do nothing all freakin day. I watched an entire disc of Sex and the City today. I keep getting crabby at my mom like its her fault I have nothing to do and like she should be entertaining me. I think she just likes having me home and doesn't realize how bored I am. I'm not a sit around and do nothing kind of person. I like doing things. I like exercising and going places and grocery shopping and water skiing and riding my bike. Doing nothing is fun because its like a treat. Some friends from high school called the other night and I didn't want to go out with them because 1) I'm embarrassed and 2) it was 11 pm and it was bedtime. Seriously. I'm an old man.
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May 9th, 2008
07:38 pm
I don't want Beth to eat me.
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December 10th, 2006
12:19 am
How do you find the balance between being comfortable with who you are and being who you want to be?
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November 28th, 2006
02:54 pm
You seem me as having emotional problems, but I overcome them. Am I strong?
You see me as having emotional problems and I do nothing about them. Am I strong?
You see me as being happy. Am I strong?
People don't know what you've been through. So say you know someone and you have seen them overcome their problems. Do you see them as strong? Now say you know someone, but you have not been made aware of any of their problems and you see them as happy. Does this make them weak because as far as you know, they haven't had to deal with any problems? Or do you see them as ignorant for not finding and addressing their problems?
Why can it make so much sense in my head, but very little when I try to get it out?
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November 23rd, 2006
01:32 am
Plan A: Study math at MSU and get a job teaching calculus to well behaved, intelligent, mature high school students.
Plan B: Go to Party Planner school.
Plan C: Transfer to Schoolcraft and join their culinary program. Upon graduation, open an astoundingly successful diner/cafe/restaurant (possible math theme).
Plan D: Transfer to Schoolcraft and join their culinary program. Upon graduation, start a culinary cruise through the Great Lakes.
Plan E: Drop out of MSU, live at home, and take culinary classes at OCC. (possible living at home forever)
Plan F: Move to Chicago and forget everyone (except my family).
Plan G: Become a Who and live in Whoville forever and ever.
Plan H: Make a living crotcheting blankets and scarves and sell them as I travel the world.
Is this seriously all I can come up with?
Plan I: Get my captain's license and drive boats.
Plan J: Acquire a sailboat and live eating fish and pirating rich people's stuff. Seriously, people don't tend to lock their boats.
Plan K: Move to Park City and teach ski lessons.
Plan L: Live at home forever.
My plan sucks.
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Current Music: Feist
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01:15 am
livejournal?
What are you here for?
I thought you had vomit on your lip, but it was only your lip ring.
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April 3rd, 2006
08:06 pm
You know what my fortune cookie told me today?
It told me "Good things are coming to you in due course of time."
I like my fortune cookie.
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December 26th, 2005
12:17 pm
I got a duffle bag for Christmas and I fit in it...comfortably.
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December 15th, 2005
03:14 pm
I made a snowman! He has two eyes made out of coal.
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December 7th, 2005
09:11 pm
I got into State.
I feel a bit relieved.
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November 11th, 2005
07:45 pm
There are 3 (maybe 4) things I am looking forward to tonight.
And one of them is eating my Fruit By The Foot.
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October 31st, 2005
05:45 pm
I carved a pumpkin in 15 minutes.
I'm going trick or treating.
And I'm Peter Pan.
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October 29th, 2005
11:32 am
Last night was SUPER. Kelly and I drove 2.5 hours to see Waking Ashland and the other bands playing with them in Grand Rapids. There were really good bands. And Jonathon remembered us from last Saturday when we saw Waking Ashland in Chicago. And we told this guy in the first band that played that we drove two and a half hours to see him/his band. Here's how that went.
Me: So we drove two and a half hours just to see you guys and we were wondering if we could get a picture with you.
Him: Of course!
(after the pictures were taken)
Him: You have to send me a copy of those pictures.
Me: Definitely.
Him: Did you really drive that long? Where are you guys from?
Kelly: Commerce Twp.
Him: How did you guys hear of us?
Kelly: (scared look on face-looks toward me)
Me: (trying to avoid the question by continuing to write my e-mail down)
Him: You guys are lying!
Me: Only sort of! We really did drive two and a half hours.
Kelly: but we came to see everyone.
Me: and then you guys were here and it was like SUPRISE!
But he was really excited at first that we had driven that far. And he was still excited that we had liked his band.
I totally weaseled my way into the front while Waking Ashland was playing. They sounded really good. Better than last week. Anyways, last night was awesome and you wish you had the hookup with Waking Ashland the way Kelly and I do.
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October 24th, 2005
08:25 pm
Hey! I got accepted to Schoolcraft!
Yeah, that's plan C.
Plan X is to get my captain's license and drive boats around, but I'm thinking I might move it up to M or N because I like boats more than the letter X.
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October 4th, 2005
07:18 pm - I love my boat(s).
When I was like 12 or 13, my mom wouldn't let me buy Seventeen magazine because she said it was for "seventeen year olds".
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October 2nd, 2005
09:07 am
Yes, I like Homecoming. I like dancing. I especially like dancing with really hot guys. Yum. Anyways, no more Homecomings after this. It's sad, but at least my last one was awesome. I remember more than one boy asking me to save them a dance, but I never saw them at the dance (and I don't really remember who said it).
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September 29th, 2005
10:33 am
I can't wait for winter.
Winter has Christmas.
Winter has skiing.
Winter has snowboarding.
Winter has hot chocolate (from Tim Horton's).
Winter has hot tub.
Winter has snow (duh).
Winter has sledding.
Winter has ice skating.
Winter has sweaters.
Winter has candy canes.
Winter has cookies.
Winter has mistletoe.
Winter has pine trees.
Winter has my heart.
Who doesn't love winter?
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